Bored. Can't breathe. Can't go outside. Don't feel good. Tired of looking out the window. Can't write. Don't want to clean the house. Can't get excited 'bout nothing. Don't want to climb on the roof and look at the chimney. Don't want to walk around the house, lost, anymore. Don't feel like having a beer. Barking at everyone. Need someone to talk to, but nobody comes out here in the sticks. Can't think up any projects. Need something to occupy my mind and fingers, but I don't want to have to think. Tired of music, tired of the same old stuff. Can't even move the furniture around. Too darn lazy to feel the blues. I should whittle something, but I don't know what. I know this day will end up wasted. It really shouldn't. The only thing that makes me feel better is writing this. Even turned down a sloppy kiss from the dog. Things have been like this before and each time I don't figure a way out of the tunnel. If you know how, please tell me. Please, please don't suggest a movie. I hope you can laugh.
3 comments:
I do not know the way... but will wander a bit in the darkness with ya. :)
Sounds like a song of the winter freeze blues that you might hear in this back woods State of VT. Many here sing it with grey sky day after day, below 0 deg. night after night and the glum of the forced air blowing through the vents.
Don't think this day is wasted, friend; no time is of waste but of reflection. When we find ourselves running circles of "don't feel like it, can't do that, won't do this and just blah"...allow yourself to rest but not without a hope. Close your eyes and find a simple thought of thankfulness...plant it in your heart, then rest on it. For each despair, plant a seed of appreciation. Each time allowing yourself one more and soon, before you know it...you'll see the sun shining inside and out again...I promise ;o).
this sounds like my typical diary entry.
lol
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